You don't want to see the rest of the house.
Since South County Boy has been sick and down for the count, my house is a mess. As much as I love my husband, I clean better in solitude... with music blasting and dog dancing. I make it fun and i'm uber productive when i'm left alone.
But when he's here, I loose all steam...
I just don't want to do my chores, let a lone his (like laundry and dishes)... I know its totally selfish, but I'm gonna say it.
I need my "me" time
Even if I spend that alone time cleaning the house and not really doing something for me... but I need him gone to do it. When he's home and not helping me with operation clean, I loose all my motivation and I get upset. I literally get physically mad because in my eyes I see that he's just laying around not doing anything while i'm getting all sweaty and turning into wonder woman... and its not just with him being under the weather.
Lately he's let his chores pile up and hasn't been helping because he knows i'll hit my breaking points and i'll do them because I can't stand to live in the mess one moment longer. I literally can't function in a mess for too long. I break down and cry... I'm literally a different person when my house is clean and in order then I am when its a disaster... I'm affectionate when my house is clean and cold as stone when its not.
Everyday with this sickness I've come home to find more dishes piling up in the kitchen, more laundry not done ... and when I clean one area, its like he gravitates to it in my absence and messes it up all over again.
And I can't get motivated to change it because HE'S HERE.
Does anyone else need to get their husband's out of the house to clean or am I just a little looney?